Is My 'No' an Authentic 'No' ?

I went to the Church of Scientology on my birthday, and every time I go there, I always learn something. Scientology has so much depth to it, and the people that work for Scientology always seem to give full attention to you, and provide a means of helping you help yourself.

On April 18th, I learned about the words 'inflow' and 'outflow'. 'Outflow' is when a person is talking to someone else, therefore, communicating to that person. 'Inflow' is the person on the receiving-end, therefore, from this perspective, a 'conversation' would be the process of alternating out-flowing and in-flowing.

But this can be applied in other ways. I went up there because I was chosen to be on staff. My answer was 'no'. But see, here is the lovely part about what I like about Scientology.

Saying the word 'no', sometimes, we are not able to see what it is prompting us to say 'no', and what I learned is that sometimes, with saying 'no', we might be cutting ourselves off from a 'blessing' / 'opportunity' / 'potential'.

Therefore, I wrote down random unfinished cycles (activities and responsibilities) in my own life that are, in theory, keeping me from being on staff, and one of those things is money. So I didn't stop there. I, then, wrote a plan on what I'm going to do, or need to do to in order to amass the money I need in order to join staff, and provide a potential date of the time of when I will be able to have the sufficient amount of money.

I then wrote down all of my unfinished courses that I have yet to complete at the Church of Scientology, and provided a potential date of when each of those courses will be finished. The point here is that, sometimes, the reason that we say 'no' is because we have not given ourselves enough out-flow, which means that we have not put ourselves out there enough to be able to receive any more in-flow / blessings / results because of being stuck in a state of idleness.

Therefore, saying 'no' can be a result of existing in a state of idleness' for a long period of time.

To me, it's not about whether I will become a staff member of the Church of Scientology or not, but it is about making sure, for myself, that my 'no' is an authentic 'no', and not a result of having positioned myself in a state of idleness.