I received a call from the Church of Scientology on Tuesday, May 3rd , and basically, they were following up with me about some assignments that I am still in the process of completing. I told them that I haven't completed them yet. And I told them the reason why I haven't completed them yet, and it is basically because I told them that my job takes up a lot of my energy, and when I am finished with my job for the day, I don't want to do anything else much but just relax. I then asked them, "What can I do about this? What would be a viable solution to work on this, and to get my assignments handled?" Well, the person that I was communicating with told me to just complete them, and to get them completed at a faster pace than the pace that I would normally take to complete them. When she said that, I realized how I have slowed down a lot in relation to getting my assignments done, so slow in-fact, that they've been a few months at a stand-still.
Now with these assignments, there is no specific deadline, but it is recommended that one lesson is completed every week. One thing about these assignments is that they help you in helping yourself become a better person. One thing that I am working on now is called Self-Analysis that basically breaks down the concepts of life and energy in a way that is workable to help you improve different aspects of your own life. There are also questions that help you confront certain aspects of yourself to help you release some of the negative energy that's been subconsciously culminating over the years in order to free yourself from some of those negative points as a way of helping you become more effective at being able to handle heavier situations.
But the point here is the way that I interact with everything and handle situations is a reflection of my character. If I am not effective at being able to handle situations, my mind will handle them for me, and the way that my mind usually handles it for me is through fear, resistance, and "negative" emotions. And usually, those things that are there to support us is where we have the most resistance. And I asked the person on the phone, "Why is this?" And she said that it's basically how we developed ourselves over-time subconsciously through our interaction in the world, and how we picked up on things. If something affects us negatively, our mind is going to create a protection around it, and try to resist it every time a similar experience comes up. And there is just so much stuff that have unconsciously impacted us that we are not aware of in our lives, and we have to be the ones that train ourselves to confront them, and basically that means confronting our fears, habits, and resistances.
So although, being tired after work is a pretty good reason to take the rest of the day off, but I have to make a decision. If I want to remain in, pretty much, the same mind-set, expectations, and standpoint when it comes to how I see life, and how I interact and react to things with not a lot of progression of character, self-reflection, and self-improvement, then I can keep letting my 'tiredness' be an excuse to remain in, pretty much, the same condition when it comes to how I see myself, and how I look at life. Or if I want to progress and make some contribution to myself, my conditions, and get what I want out of life, then I'm going to have to do something different which requires some form of action. Now I'm not saying that if a person works all of the time, and then goes home and relaxes everyday after work that they do not make any progress when it comes to self-improvement, progression of character, and getting what they want out of life. There's always some lesson to be learned everyday, and some opportunity or room for self-improvement that can be attained. All that I'm saying is that, for me, I don't want my 'tiredness' to be an excuse to remain stagnant. I want to move. I want to grow. I want to progress, and the degree of growth that I find if I allow my 'tiredness' to dictate my actions is not enough for me.
So, for me, what I was reminded of when communicating to this lady is to 'go faster' which means 'give it more of what you got'. In my moments when I am biased in relation to just wanting to relax or wanting to contribute to something that will help me grow and become a better person, a lot of times, I choose the former because it's easier to do. But I would like to see how far I can go, how much I can get done, and how much more results that I can generate if I do the latter.
Now with these assignments, there is no specific deadline, but it is recommended that one lesson is completed every week. One thing about these assignments is that they help you in helping yourself become a better person. One thing that I am working on now is called Self-Analysis that basically breaks down the concepts of life and energy in a way that is workable to help you improve different aspects of your own life. There are also questions that help you confront certain aspects of yourself to help you release some of the negative energy that's been subconsciously culminating over the years in order to free yourself from some of those negative points as a way of helping you become more effective at being able to handle heavier situations.
But the point here is the way that I interact with everything and handle situations is a reflection of my character. If I am not effective at being able to handle situations, my mind will handle them for me, and the way that my mind usually handles it for me is through fear, resistance, and "negative" emotions. And usually, those things that are there to support us is where we have the most resistance. And I asked the person on the phone, "Why is this?" And she said that it's basically how we developed ourselves over-time subconsciously through our interaction in the world, and how we picked up on things. If something affects us negatively, our mind is going to create a protection around it, and try to resist it every time a similar experience comes up. And there is just so much stuff that have unconsciously impacted us that we are not aware of in our lives, and we have to be the ones that train ourselves to confront them, and basically that means confronting our fears, habits, and resistances.
So although, being tired after work is a pretty good reason to take the rest of the day off, but I have to make a decision. If I want to remain in, pretty much, the same mind-set, expectations, and standpoint when it comes to how I see life, and how I interact and react to things with not a lot of progression of character, self-reflection, and self-improvement, then I can keep letting my 'tiredness' be an excuse to remain in, pretty much, the same condition when it comes to how I see myself, and how I look at life. Or if I want to progress and make some contribution to myself, my conditions, and get what I want out of life, then I'm going to have to do something different which requires some form of action. Now I'm not saying that if a person works all of the time, and then goes home and relaxes everyday after work that they do not make any progress when it comes to self-improvement, progression of character, and getting what they want out of life. There's always some lesson to be learned everyday, and some opportunity or room for self-improvement that can be attained. All that I'm saying is that, for me, I don't want my 'tiredness' to be an excuse to remain stagnant. I want to move. I want to grow. I want to progress, and the degree of growth that I find if I allow my 'tiredness' to dictate my actions is not enough for me.
So, for me, what I was reminded of when communicating to this lady is to 'go faster' which means 'give it more of what you got'. In my moments when I am biased in relation to just wanting to relax or wanting to contribute to something that will help me grow and become a better person, a lot of times, I choose the former because it's easier to do. But I would like to see how far I can go, how much I can get done, and how much more results that I can generate if I do the latter.